Time Leap

OK... july to now a big time leap..



1) I am sick of life

2) Living is becoming a chore


3) I dont want to end my life

4) Living without a goal is bad

5) Living without knowing which one is your goal is worst

6) Attachment is fucking killing me

7)

space--time

Don't know why after watching 5cm per sec, emotions start leaking again. I thought that i had a really sealed up everything frozen in a timeless space, but it seem time started to flow again.

I guess i was naive, thinking that by separating myself it will just dissolve as time pass. Even though it been a long time since i saw her, even we no long slip pass each other's sight, it still there, waiting for the chance to return.

It funny, i really do not know if it is because I keep telling myself that I like her or was it because I really like her... yet no matter which it was. I failed as someone who like her, no...
I failed being a human, a being.

No matter how much i tell people are even myself that i like her, it is nothing but words which has not meaning behind it. A lifeless object that don't event exist. A illusion that what I am.

Just a few more months and we will never see each other again, maybe I was never alive in her world. Everything is just my dream from the start, a dream that crossed the line a reality. From the moment I was standing behind her, hearing her every breath feeling her every heart beat, I have been dreaming.

A continuation of a dream that lasted 9 years, when can i wake up? Maybe i just don't want to, in my dream everything goes the way I want. In my dream, i am god.

Ah.. maybe I don't love her after all, what I loved is "I".

I...

who is I?

I is my dream....

I love my dream... my dream of being with her...

a gal name... jia min

maybe...

anyone can be that name..

just need someone to make my dream complete..

Cosfest 2007 day 3

Hmm... this year cosplay festival was good. I can say there are alot of quality cosplayer out there in our singapore community. Of couse there are occational life stealer out there, but with my high level magic barrier, i managed to survived....


Overall I am very satisfied, met a few new people in the community, found out that there are more people than I thought around me that are like me... well like what the host said, this event is for us to mix around ,make new friends and appriciate this love together!!

So my photo? Well they are still undergoing major processing..... wad to do my camera can't zoom, 3.2 mega pixel and the flash cmi T>T... I need a new digital camera!!!

But well, even with a good camera i may not be able to produce good photo anyway... need to learn more from my master...

Here is a picture that i have finished processing

Rei from EVA

more will be coming up soon...

4969-sex and trap

2.11am-
connecting to sg.galaxynet.org(6667)
sg.galaxynet.org- *** Looking up your hostname
sg.galaxynet.org- *** Checking for ident server
sg.galaxynet.org- *** Found your hostname
Welcome to the Internet Relay Network sad`gal

#teens- dxp - loneguy- rx7-
rx7>hihi
rx7>intro?
sad`gal>14f
sad`gal>u?
rx7>20m
rx7>why so sad?
sad`gal>nothing......

Another virtual intreaction between two living subjects. None of both party know each other more than the words that was told to each other...


rx7>aiya....
rx7>dont be sad, still got me mah..
sad`gal>haha...
rx7>u got pic?
sad'gal>ya
rx7>send?
sad`gal>y?
rx7>curious mah...
DCC Send meself.jpeg
rx7>wah so cute
rx7>hw can he do this to you..
...

sometimes a digital image is exchanged, maybe a voice call.... or a video chat...
But everything is nothing more than a exhange of data from one node to another...

Reason for the data exhange?

Self-stimulation-

universe a:
rx7>just dont care about him la..
rx7>he is not worth you crying over..
sad`gal>hiaz..
sad`gal>you are right
sad`gal>nice talking to u..
sad`gal>gtg...
disconnected

universe b:
rx7>wah... so daring ah..
sad`gal>okie la...
rx7>u alone now??
sad`gal>ya...
rx7>wanna try something fun??
??


universe c:
sad`gal>ya lor..
sad`gal>sadz..
sad`gal>will you treat me better?
rx7>ya..
sad`gal>why not we meet up?
rx7>okie....
sad`gal>cool...
sad`gal>i wanna go shopping 2morrow
sad`gal>wanna meet up
rx7>sure
rx7>^.^

...

no matter how many varibles, as long there is a sucess full connection



the reason will still be same...

offender is the victim
victim is the offender

digital or no digital

4969

MY DARLING IS HERE!!!

Whooo! Finally after all the waiting, she is finially here!!!


Matsuri!! My limited edition Sola 1 dvd set!!



dvd case cover


items included in the limited ed


art of disc case


some of you may notice a missing disc in the 2nd picture, the disc is an audio disc featuring Ishizuki Mana. It contain an interview, a audio drama and a song sang by Mana. Along with it are gooddies such as post cards and a photo album. One of the thing i love the most is the art of the disc case and i cant wait to scan it in and use it as my wallpaper. Overall i am one very happy consumer ^.^ and urge others sola fans to order yourself a copy.

For those who dont watch sola..... go freaking watch it!!!!


Now i need to save up more money for the second dvd set T>T!!

damage report

okie... this few days no time to make an entry cause busy..


anyway just bought a book while i was out with edmund last week..

could not stand the tempation thus this is wad i gotten.






chap 1 cover art scan


oh and you many notice i switched to photobucket, cause imageshack just not good for long term...

Okie... so long never post anything le, just let just put something up before this place get closed down.Ha haha..


Anyway i am sure by now everyone should have heard of Odex sueing people from dling anime. Hiaz... now have to import anime from oversea le T>T......


Note to Odex: Want people to buy from you? improve on your services and quality. E.g online streaming with up to date anime releases...etc

So thats for now... going to be busy ......